Fluid Struggles

My struggles are belated. I am been underwater for so long.

I see myself in this fluid medium with utmost clarity, and yet

The ripples distort the vision

But

I know these are mere images and are never permanent.

I struggle, yes I do

To see myself with utmost clarity

Through this fluid medium

Through you.

But I am certain,

I still know me.

I moved with the currents in this undulating stream.

Ever -changing, ever moving, ever evolving.

I sing through all terrains  and hoped to be heard above the din

Of the rushing waters cascading into your waterfall.

I try, oh I try

And my vision of me is as lucid as it has ever been.

And yet, I struggle, yes I do

To know me, through you but not entirely

Because I know, I know me too.